Hi, my name is Carly and I am a serial Slimming World (SW from now on) food optimiser.
I started my SW adventure a long time ago now, back in 2003. I weighed less when I joined my first ever class than I do now, but that's what a poor relationship with food and at times, a severe lack of will power does to you. I can't remember how many times I have joined a class and left again, a lot of the times it wasn't my choosing, it was because I had moved areas and had to leave. Other times it was due to me not feeling comfortable with the new group or not feeling particularly impressed or empowered by the consultant. And there were also the times that I fell off the wagon.
My pattern since 2003 has been the same: attend class -->usually do fairly well, lose some weight although no where near enough --> leave the class for one reason or another --> know that I will be joining another class shortly so make the most of the interim period by eating everything that is difficult to have whilst sticking to plan and as much of it as I want (this time period can vary from a week to a good few months) --> join another class and the cycle continues.
This time it's different. I've had enough of that pattern and of never really getting anywhere and I am more than aware that I have a totally unhealthy and strange relationship with food. So this time I'm sticking with it and addressing my issues with food one by one. Keeping this blog will help with this.
I am not going to post my weight yet and I won't until I feel comfortable with it. It's suffice to say that I have a lot to lose and probably a lot more than most people. I have no target weight in mind...I don't want to think of a number and decide that when those numbers come up on the scales I can be happy. I want to happy with who I am because I feel confident and I like how I look and I feel comfortable in my clothes. I will know when I have lost enough because I will feel better and that will be regardless of any measurements, tools, bmi charts, and so on that state you have to be between this point and that point to be healthy. Those tools are useful to look at and to ensure that things are going in the right direction so I may post them throughout the blog, however I am not looking to fit into some pigeon-holed box.
I just want to be me and be happy with that.
